The past

It just sucks when you think back about the past and what happened 1 year ago..right at this time..not something that i really want to think about or promised myself to do..but i guess sometimes you just cant help thinking about everyhing that has happened to you and around you..

i remember all the good times that we had together and all the bad times as well..i used to remember us staying up late and talking on the phone for hours and hours..until the point where your mum had to pick up the phone and tell you to go to bed..the thought of that still provokes me in somewhat an amusing way..and also how one time you scared me over something and i was soo scared that i was doing everything i could to make you feel better when everything was just a joke and it wasnt meant to be at all..you know its just these things that spark ones memories nad makes you think back about everything that you've been through..basically it wasnt all smooth sailing anyways..when there are good times, there are always bound to be bad times as well..

still remember that saturday that scared my life forever..and i dont want to think about it becuase its just too sad and i wasnt given another chance at all..ok it wasnt like something that scared me but more of something that when i think back i just blame myself for acting the way i was..everyone has their bad days, i cant believe you couldnt take mine..to think that you actually blog about people not understanding when you yourself dont..and the thing is that you expect people to know what you're going thru when you do nothing about it? and when something that we do is not in your approval you just turn and walk away and do nothing and we cant do that to you because you'd think that we're ignoring you..its like you can be the worst person ever but we have to be like perfect infront of you?thats not very fair at all..because you're not perfect at all as well and you will never be cause no one is perfect..well im sorry im not perfect and i dont think i can ever measure up because you're really everything im not at all..

but somehow or the other, the good stuff just manages to overwrite everything that went wrong..thats how relationships are supposed to work right?the good stuff overcoming the bad ones..its called compromising and giving in..but apparently you dont have that in you? i tried i really did..but i dont know why im still ok with everything you've done..im willing to forgive and forget and yet you're not..its just pointless..

i really want to put this behind me..i thought i had till i saw your stupid face..i swear i did not expect to see it at all..it just pisses me off now..

leave me alone,
get out of my face,
im tired and low,
feeling so misplaced.
i guess im better off on my own..

Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever

Whooo hooo it seems like it was only just yesterday..but 4ever turns one today..all the good memories i had with this song its just soo amazing..3300++ it beats fly flat..fly only managed 3000 in a year so yes haha kudos to 4ever and the veronicas may they live 4ever and ever LMAO

in wonderful memory of 4ever..

Here we are so what you gonna do
Do I gotta spell it out for youI can see that you got other plans for tonight
But I dont really care
Size me up you know I beat the best
Tick tock no time to rest
Let them say what they're gonna say
But tonight I just dont really care

Chorus:
Come on baby we ain't gonna live 4ever
Let me show you all the things that we could do
You know I wanna be together
And I wanna spend the night with you
With you
Come with me tonight
We could make the night last 4ever.....

I've seen it all, I've got nothing to prove
Come on baby just make your move
Follow me let's leave it all behind tonight
Like we just don't care
Let me take you on the ride of your life
That's what I said alright
They can say what they wanna say
Cause tonight I just don't even care

Chorus

Let's pretend your mine
We could just pretend, we could just pretend, yeah yeah
You've got what I likeYou got what I like, I got what you like
Oh come onJust one taste and you'll want more
So tell me what you're waiting for

Chorus(Repeat)

I put my faith in you!

I put my faith in you,
what a stupid thing to do..
they say when it rains it pours. i guess it really does. i dont know why i even bother being your friend really? cause like everyday i just sit her waiting and hoping to actually talk to you, waiting for us to be what we were before..ok not the extreme part but more of the whole good friends thing where we actually talk to one another and share our problems with each other. everytime you came online a smile will appear on my face. a glimpse of happiness. at least i knew that i had a good time talking to you..sharing my stuff cause at least you'd understand what i was going thru. you did you help me and you were there to listen to what i had to say..i really appreciated that..it was a good thing..

i knew that i was wrong..i said i was sorry already..i asked if we could start afresh and you said yes..but apparently i have no idea what i did wrong this time..really why do i even care?please tell me? there are soo many other people out there that are better than you are but i have no idea why i want to be your friend..its really pointless..me wasting my time here regreting everything i've done..its not like me at all to actually apologize first but i did..and now i dont even get a wave..all i get is a stare..a stare of hate, a stare of an arrow just piercing thru myself..you have no idea how that feels at all..and you just walk away like that..thanks!

the best part is that i have no idea what you're saying about me..to your friends behind my back..i really give up..i have no idea what i did wrong and apparently i will never cause i doubt ill ever speak to you ever again because its just a waste of time and we all know that..and clearly its really over between us, well there was nothing between us to begin with anyways..so much for being your friend..

maybe theres beauty in goodbye
theres just no reason left to try
you pushed me away
another black day...

GLORIA JEANS!!!!!!

i want GLORIA JEANS NOWWWWWWWWW


ahhh im so sleepy im craving for it right here right now..damn it they should do delivery service!!!!!!!!!!!


criessssssssssssssssssssssssss

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!boost juice would be fine too..

ok im done!

what has been happening so far

ok yes this is way way way overdue..but yes i really enjoyed my whole trip in aus..its just that i was too lazy to blog about it..

i had heaps of fun in syd..went shopping..eating, shopping and more eating and shopping..went to watch a movie..had heaps and heaps of food..grew fat..grew darker..ate more..basically i did everyything more..but i guess alot has changed since i came back..i love aus so much and i really really miss it heaps..

it took me quite sometime to get used to the weather in sg..its soo hot..i really cannot take it lol..up to this point im still soo hot all the time..but yes..i bought heaps of nice stuff in aus..nice rip curl jeans for half price and other nice stuff..im so happy with myself..i came back with too much..up to the point where i cant even carry them lol..well lets just say what i carried back was more than what i weighed..and im about 58kgs? so yes haha go figure..

so right..when i came back, i just basically went out everyday..hahah soo bad i know but meh what can you do..i was like OMG i start school in 1 week SHHHHIIIIIIIIITTTTT i dont wanna start school..so yes i went out and HAD GLORIA JEANS!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
hahaha i was soo happy and i found boost juice too YAY hahahahaha OMFG i love those 2 things i cannot live without them (: so yes i was soo happy (:

right..urm yeah and i went out with charmaine on friday..we went to watch the black dahlia..wow hahah i dont know what to say about that movie..hahaha its gorry..a little lesbo stuff in it..urm and alot of blood..but yes its nonetheless good..its really intense, captivating. it keeps you on your seat at all times and wow i was like shocked..but still i love it haha its good really good..then we went to have dinnner in swensens and meh the food was alright..and we went baby stuff shopping..lol damn fun!

ohoh on our way home we saw singapore idol finalists, paul twohill and jasmine..i must say they loook much better in person then on tv but yes it was shocking..

and yeah basically thtas what has been happening in my life and yes i started school. YAY!! NOT!! but yes im dealing with it..

oh well till next time people,

come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever!

oh and im shifting back to my old blog soon!

Rest of the trip in melb (:

Ok so it was the end of rachels house..and on to a new place! So i moved to my cousin jereme's house..it was really cool aye.cause it was with all his med school mates and they are all really really nice people..it was soo much fun to hang out around them (:

It was a nice monday morning and the weather was alright..it looked like it was gonna rain like in the afternoon but it was all cool..so yes i took a train down myself to melbourne central where i went to finally meet sarah! i was really really excited to meet her..while i was on the train, i was quietly listening to my ipod and someone fainted or something..i couldnt see very clearly cause the train was really really packed with heaps of people..but thank goodness that person was alright you know..there were people there on the train that knew how to handle situations like that..so yes i finally met her and you know the funny thing is that i felt that it was like that _____ nothing at all..i mean all the excitement that build up just crumbled down? maybe it was because i was too tired and she was sick?i derno but i just felt that we were drifting apart eventho we were together and i felt like a drag the entire day which was a really sad thing..but yes jo was there as well and we went to lygon street to have nice pasta..

as usual before we met, everyone was late and i was on time..so i decided to stop by gabbys house to visit her for a while and hang out..cause she had to go home after staying with rach..so i called her and said i should be there in like 5-7 mins..apaprently i was earlier..so i walked straight right up to her house..and someone opened the door so i went in and went up the lift..and when i reached her floor, poof she was standing right outside the lift and she was jumping around saying wow you remembered how to come to my house..it was hilarious..haha anywhos we talked and stuff and watched oprah...haha damn funny..

so yes jo had to go off so i was left with rah and her sister debbie..the whole time i felt like a total drag and it totally sucked..i felt i just lost my best friend but yeah..there were soo many awkard silences and pauses that it really freaked me out..and at that point i realized that its just different you know its not the same anymore and it never will be cause we're just soo far apart and different, its good that we still remaind friends but i dont think we can be best friends anymore?i just dont really..but yes we still enjoyed ourselves but..meh i dont wanna talk about it..

so i hung out with my cousin like alot and stuff and yeah the next day we went to the royal melbourne show where i met his other friends..nandini, ming and kalyn (derno how to spell her namme)..anyways so yeah we went around looking at heaps of stuff..dogs,horses,cows, and bla bla bla..and we went on this freaking awesome ride that was soo freaking cool hahaa..it went round and round really quickly and it was really high and it kept turning us around and we went upside down and everything wow..haha that was like the highlight of the show man..it was SUPER fun..and we bought showbags(bags with pictures on it with heaps and heaps of stuff from the brand like say you buy something from mars you get heaps of mars chocs and other stuff) so yeap after that we went to celebrate nani's birthday..it was her birthday that day and we had seriously good good food..it was super super yummy and the price was really ex too but meh it was worth it for sure!

and yeah bascially we just went around melb..and his friends took me out and brought me around..and i got to know someone of them even better..and i kinda miss them cause they are really really nice and yeah just a great bunch of people..more shopping and eating and stuff..and it was off to syd..

tilll next time people!!!!!

tell me what you want,
what you really really want
i'll tell you what i want,
what i really really want
i wanna ha
i wanna ha
i wanna ha
i wanna ha
LMFAO ------ nice version done by the veornicas its soooooo funny (: