I put my faith in you!

I put my faith in you,
what a stupid thing to do..
they say when it rains it pours. i guess it really does. i dont know why i even bother being your friend really? cause like everyday i just sit her waiting and hoping to actually talk to you, waiting for us to be what we were before..ok not the extreme part but more of the whole good friends thing where we actually talk to one another and share our problems with each other. everytime you came online a smile will appear on my face. a glimpse of happiness. at least i knew that i had a good time talking to you..sharing my stuff cause at least you'd understand what i was going thru. you did you help me and you were there to listen to what i had to say..i really appreciated that..it was a good thing..

i knew that i was wrong..i said i was sorry already..i asked if we could start afresh and you said yes..but apparently i have no idea what i did wrong this time..really why do i even care?please tell me? there are soo many other people out there that are better than you are but i have no idea why i want to be your friend..its really pointless..me wasting my time here regreting everything i've done..its not like me at all to actually apologize first but i did..and now i dont even get a wave..all i get is a stare..a stare of hate, a stare of an arrow just piercing thru myself..you have no idea how that feels at all..and you just walk away like that..thanks!

the best part is that i have no idea what you're saying about me..to your friends behind my back..i really give up..i have no idea what i did wrong and apparently i will never cause i doubt ill ever speak to you ever again because its just a waste of time and we all know that..and clearly its really over between us, well there was nothing between us to begin with anyways..so much for being your friend..

maybe theres beauty in goodbye
theres just no reason left to try
you pushed me away
another black day...