Everything is f'ed up

Yes wow 2 entires in one day..psssh im going nuts right now..i keep thinking about something that i derno if its true or not..

Everything is soo f***ed up right now..i just found out something about you..that you are keeping something from me..i dont know what it is but there's something that you're not telling me..i think you're backstabbing me but i derno if its true or not..are you really doing it? Because if you are thats just f***ing retarded..cause i have no idea why you want to be in cahoots with some loser f***ing person? When all that you told me about that person was everything that wasnt good, that the person was f'ed up and stuff and a bastard, a jerk, an asshole..are you now turning your back on me and telling me that you're working with this person right now to manipulate my mind? I thought we were going back to where were before..all those good times that we had..i thought they were gone and never coming back..but that all change recently..BUT now after what i heard from my friend about you..things are going to start to change for the worse..im sorry it will have to end this way..you dont even treat me the same way as i do to you..do i even mean anything to you ? I dont think you even treasure our friendship at all..to think that i try to do soo much for you and all that i get back is shit and more shit? Well im sorry to say that evidently you havent changed one bit at all, you promised to change but i just dont see anything at all..i mean i put so much into this relationship and what do i get back? shit and more shit from you..and you dont treat me the same way as i treat you so yes..i dont even know why im hanging on to this..seriously i should just let it go because you're too little too late..youre just too late and i cant wait anymore..

so yes i dont wanna pretend so this is the f***ing end of you and me..

Sleep!!!!!!!!!

AHHh i need sleep lol..im deprived of sleep..
I was really tired today so yes i tired to be a good boy and go to bed early..BUT as i was sleeping and just chilling out on my bed listening to my beloved Jessemry, my friend call me!!!!!!!!!!!!ARGHHHHHHHHH i was like wtf?????? i was trying to sleep and it got ruined..and the best part was that i was almost about to fall into deep sleep when that happened..totally ruined my sleep..pissed..

So yes now im stuck here doing nothing and i cannot sleep..and i have no friends to talk to online or should i say people that i do not want to talk to..where have all my friends gone?haha probably all sleeping..psssh i need sleep TOO its just that i cannot go back to sleep right now..

anyways the song Too Litte Too Late by Jojo has been stuck in my head for like ages now and i cannot stop listening to it at all haha..im going insane..its like my 24th most played song now..it jumped really fast..but its going to take time for it to reach the top 10 haha or even top 20..

so heres this weeks top 20 since im soo bored

On The Verge

25. Hilary Duff - Fly -- finally returning after a long long time..
24. Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away
23. Aly & Aj - Chemicals React
22. Kelly Clarkson - Go
21. Ashley Parker Angel - Let U Go

Top 20.

20. The All American Rejects - Top Of The World
19. Kaci Brown - SOS
18. The Veronicas - Veronicas Mix
17. Hilary Duff - Come Clean
16. Jojo - Leave (Get Out)
15. The Veronicas - How Long
14. Mandy Moore - I Wanna Be With You
13. Follow Me Home - Sugababes
12. Rihanna - Unfaithul
11. PCD - Buttons
10. The Afters - Beautiful Love
9. Beyonce Knowles - Deja Vu
8. Repeat Offender - Smaller & More Efficient
7. Repeat Offender - Red 4 You
6. Katharine McPhee - My Destiny
5. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins
4. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart
3. The Veronicas - 4ever
2. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not
1. Jojo - Too Little Too Late


This weeks craze
Jojo - Too Little Too Late
The Veronicas - Everything Im Not
The Veronicas - Revolution
Katharine McPhee - Somewhere Over The Rainbow

the life of dejected people

Well what can i say? You work hard, you work your arse off..


ahhhh all i wanna say is f*** F*** F*** F*** F*** F***

Some weird survey thing

Something funny hahaha

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song title as the answer to the question.
Change songs after every question.

NO CHEATING.

1. How does the world see me?:
Ryan Cabrera - Photo (not bad ahhaha)

2. Will I have a happy life?:
The Veronicas - Nobody Wins
( ): lmao hahahaha)

3. What do my friends really think of me?:
The Veronicas - Mouth Shut (weird)

4. Do people secretly lust after me?:
Hilary Duff - Fly (any moment everything can change cant it?)

5. How can I make myself happy?:R
yan Cabrera - From The Start (go back to the start?)

6. What should I do with my life?:T
ammin Sursok - Whatever Will Be (LMAO ahhaha seriously..?)

7. Will I ever have children?:
Ryan Cabrera - Shine On ( shine on you were made to lol)

8. What is some good advice for me?:
The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone (LMAO haahaha this is hilarious)

9. How will you be remembered?:
The Veronicas - Did Ya Think (not bad but i was hoping for 4ever to pop up)

10. What is my signature dancing song?:
Delta Goodrem - Together We Are One (hmm not bad but its a slow dance)

11. What do I think my current theme song is?:
Aly & Aj - Rush (wow not bad i really love this song now)

12. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away (hmmm *raises eyebrows)

13. What song will play at my funeral?:
The Veronicas - 4ever (LMAO hahahahahhahahaha omg i dont mind)

14. What type of men/women do you like?:
Kate Dearuago - Faded

15. What is my day going to be like?:
The Click Five - Time Machine (i have to go back in time interesting..)

A song i wrote for Lisa

Since Lisa is sick, i decided to write her a song to cheer her up

You'll always be strong, with her by your side.

Sometimes it just doesnt add up
When everythings going well
Everything just starts to fall apart.
And it may not have been your fault

Youve tried your best to stay strong
But there was no other way out of it
You gave it your best and your all
But it just wasnt enough

It doesnt matter anymore
Just stand strong and move on

Chorus
Because you know that
You cant do it on your own
You need her by your side
With her, you can shine on
And forget about all the things that have happened
Were still here for you no matter what
You know that well always love you

Even when times are rough
And everyone lets you down
You know shes there for you
To pick you up when youre down

Never give up, never lose hope
Walking straight through this road
Youve fallen, and nows not the time to mope
Keep moving, keep pressing on

You will always be strong
Fighting this battle with her

Bridge
Dont let anyone put you down
After what happened,
The worlds not falling apart
You think the journeys ended
But youre wrong cause its only just began..

From bad to worse, maybe there's beauty in goodbye

Ok I really wanted to blog yesterday today but blogger is being gay..psssh..anywhos yes ahh the world is falling apart..really..so yes i blogged today instead

You get punished for doing something that you didnt do..how unfair is that? Ok yes it was my bad for letting someone copy my work but wtf I told that person to edit my work already and how did that person not have any brains at all to hand in the same thing as me? Im just soo pissed man im telling you I don’t why this is happening to me..ok seriously its not my fault at all and I had to be punished..and the worst part was that it was a good work..dude you need to do your own work and stop copying other peoples work and even if you want to continue doing that, at least rephrase it..i pity your future victims for they do not know what they are getting into..

And just when you think that it’s a little too late, something happens and makes it happen again? Why I already want to end this whole thing. I don’t wanna carry on with what is already there because I know its just not right and I don’t see anything from it at all..i wanna tell you but its just so hard and I know I cannot dot it at all..

I found out something about someone that I really looked up to..he cheated on his gf..my world almost collapsed when I heard about it..why is it so that the only thing in a guys mind when he gets a gf is just all about sex and when it isn’t good, they find someone else to substitute them..someone that I really liked got cheated and hurt and he was just together with her for sex only, can this be true? I really hope that it isn’t true at all..its upsetting..i mean when someone you look up to soo much..and now everything just starts to fall apart..i think she should really sing when it all falls apart to him..can she really turn to him right now when he’s done so much to her? They said that they would remain friends, I highly doubt that that would happen. His previous relationships, were they just for sex too? Was he just using them?i really don’t know..and it makes me sad..

on a lighter note ahah gf claims to be the bf..wow ahha isnt this exciting..someone must be living in denial..i wonder who..but still yes the mysterious and journeys of gf and bf continue..until next time..*disclaimer...the gf and bf mentioned here is not related to anything i said before..its a whole different story and diferent people..

Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever!

Top 20 for this week

On The Verge

25. Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away
24. Kaci Brown - SOS
23. Aly & Aj - Chemicals React
22. Ashley Parker Angel - Let U Go
21. Rihanna - S.O.S (Rescue Me)

Top 20.

20. The Pussycat Dolls - Buttons
19. Ryan Cabrera - From The Start
18. Jojo - Leave (Get Out)
17. The Veronicas - How Long
16. Hilary Duff - Come Clean
15. Mandy Moore - I Wanna Be With You
14. Kelly Clarkson - Go
13. The Afters - Someday
12. The Veronicas - Veronicas Mix
11. Rihanna - Unfaithful
10. The Afters - Beautiful Love
9. Beyonce - Deja Vu
8. Repeat Offender - Smaller & More Efficient
7. Repeat Offender - Red 4 U *This weeks craze
6. Katharine McPhee - My Destiny *This weeks craze
5. The Veonicas - Nobody Wins
4. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart
3. The Veronicas - 4ever
2. Jojo - Too Little Too Late *This weeks craze
1. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not *This weeks craze

Too Little Too Late

You know its just too little too late..i had soo much to give but its just too late...

Jojo - Too Little Too Late

Come with me, stay the night

You say the words but boy it don't feel right

What do you expect me to say (You know it's just too little too late)

You take my hand, and you say you've changed

But boy you know your beggin don't fool me

Because to you it's just a game

So let me on down

Cause time has made me strong

I'm starting to move on

I'm gonna say this now

Your chance has come and gone

And you knowIt's just too little too late

A little too wrong

And I can't wait

Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)

You say you dream of my face

But you don't like me

You just like the chase

To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

I was young and in love

I gave you everything but it wasn't enough

And now you wanna communicate

Go find someone else

In lettin you go, I'm lovin myself

You gotta problem

But don't come askin me for help

Cause you know

It's just too little too late

A little too wrong

And I can't wait

Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)

You say you dream of my face

But you don't like me

You just like the chase

To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

I can love with all of my heart baby

I know I have so much to give (I have so much to give)

With a player like you, I don't have a prayer

That's the way to live, yeah oh

It's just too little, too late

Yeah

It's just too little too late

A little too wrong

And I can't wait

Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)

You say you dream of my face

But you don't like me

You just like the chase

To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

Its over

So much has happened, so much has been forgotten..
So many memories just washed away, flushed from my memory..
Do i still even care? i really have no idea..
I've been waiting for so long, for you to give me signs, to show me something..
Anything just to say that you care, to say that there will be something..
I cannot wait anymore, i wont wait anymore..
I think its best if we just remain friends because i dont know if its going to work.
I ask myself if it would work, a few months ago i was certain of the answer but to my dismay the answer is no..whatever i felt before isnt there anymore..
Time did tell and everything that was once is all gone now..washed down the drains..
All efforts gone in vain..
I tried to hold on to something that wasnt there..
Something i wished was there
Something that i really wanted to be there
But how can i hold on to it? I dont know if its going to happen
And im unsure of the outcome..i tried really hard to tell you
But mere words just couldnt express what i wanted to say
I just didnt know how to put it..i didnt want anything to happen between us at all..
Maybe its just me and you have no idea at all?
So i guess that this is the end?
I think its better this way anyways..

I dont wanna pretend, so this is the end of you and me..

Say Goodbye - S Club

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the
World i'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

Physically Drained

SOoo SOooo very tired..

Im just soo physically drained im soo tired everyday..

Even with at least 1 hours sleep everyday in the affternoon, tiredness still gets the best of me..

I never fail to get sleepy by 12..im like a kid now..i didnt use to be like that before..

I need sleep..and energy! RED BULLL!

I crave for RED BULL!

TOO CLOSE

It was a weird turn of events today..i met someone i shouldnt have met, someone i wouldnt have guessed that i would meet..i came to schoool..stunned, i left school more stunned and shocked..i cannot believe this is happening...its really just too close hahaha..such close proximity LOL and yes ahha rach was going crazy when she saw..haha she was speechless she had no clue what to do..hahahah

right i got scolded by my teacher today..which sucks big time well its partly my fault but yeah i mean there's nothing i can do about it..i might get kicked out of school but i really derno..i guess they'd be looking at the kind of work that i produce from now on and yeah im going to be very careful with what im doing and not let anyone take anything away from me and ruin my entire future..

i was watching bend it like beckham today ahha one of my fav shows..i just love that show soo much (: its super hilarious and i couldnt stop laughing haha..my parents were laughing too..a commerical came on about Miss Singapore or sometihng and OMG they were playing REVOLUTION BY THE VERNOICAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFFFFFFFFFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG i went crazy in my heart ahah couldnt go insane right in front of my parents BUT OMG HAHHAHAHA ITS THE VERONICASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH

right today was a werid day ahahhaha..whoot whoot!

Top 20 songs for the week

Top 25 songs

On The Verge
25. The Veronicas - Mother Mother
24. The Click Five - Catch Your Wave
23. Nick Lachey - Whats Left Of Me
22. Delta Goodrem - Together We Are One
21. Kaci Brown - Unbelievable

Top 20
20. Ryan Cabrera - Fall Baby Fall
19. Ryan Cabrera - Photo
18. Lifehouse - You And Me
17. Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away
16. Kaci Brown - SOS
15. Aly & Aj - Chemicals React
14. Paris Hilton - Stars Are Blind
13. Ryan Cabrera - I Will Remeber You
12. Kelly Clarkson - Go
11. Beyonce - Deja Vu
10. Ashley Parker Angel - Let U Go
9. Katharine McPhee - My Destiny *This Weeks Craze
8. Rihanna - SOS (Rescue Me)
7. Rihanna - Unfaithful
6. The Afters - Beautiful Love
5. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins
4. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart
3. JoJo - Too Little Too Late *This Weeks Craze
2. The Veronicas - 4ever *This Weeks Craze
1. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not *This Weeks Craze

Long time

Wow its been a really long time since i last updated..almost a month ago..well the reason is because im just too lazy and i cant be bothered haha..my old blog is still under construction which is annoying but yes urm well basically life has been alright for me other than my ipod being gay at certain times like just now i guess i could say that life has been good so far..

Everythings working out right i hope..my aus trip is set and the dates are all good im just awaiting confirmation from certain parties and then i can start planning for it. The saving part is already on its way and i hope i can reach my goal (:

Oh and i recently signed up for my theory test with Vickie..yay hahahah we are going to start driving soon whoot whoot (:

And urm i dont like 4ever as much as i did before and i dont think it can beat fly in a year due to the fact that i have heaps of other songs that i love right now..unlike fly which was on its own parctically all the way.

Oh and i went on a downloading new songs spree today and downloaded all the new songs (: even those really blonde ones..i dont wanna say what i downloaded but yeah its embarrassing hahaha if you wanna know im me aight?hahaha cause yes its not something im proud of but i still like them nonetheless. sweet i got my thai songs too yay (: this group's just awesome they are called four mod..and me and candice and ben were watching the match between aus and brazil i think and it came on during commercials and we absolutely loved it oh clems was there too ahaha so yeah the 4 of us went to buy their cd and we love their songs (:

Welll yeah thats basically it my thailand trip was really good..i have to do a write up on it really soon. oh by tmr haha right..oh well and schools been good as i said before and yeah im blessed (:

oh and Happy Birthday Charmaine and Priya (: 18's a big number..take care of yourselves guys dont drink too much!