Difficult week

Wow its amazing how time passes by so quickly and everything just passed by so quickly..and everything went wrong again..with friends, life, everything..its really depressing..i never go thru a week where its normal. something must happen, even this week i cant believe its happening..people just dont learn eh? they just have to go on and on about stuff and they dont know how much people hate them for who they are? I thought you were ok.. i still do but im just gonna put it aside and be there no matter what..im not gonna let this matter affect anything at all because its just plain stupid for me to even care why should i let this even affect me? You know you were never there for me at all when i needed someone..why should i even be there for you?im just gonna move on and pretend that this never happened..and stop pretending that its ok when we both know that it isnt..

anyways it started when storm left rockstar supernova..devastating blow for me but yet it was a big one..i hoped that she would win eventho i know she wasnt gonna win..you know how sometimes you just want someone to do well but you know they arent good enough to win the competition..just like what happened on sunday morning and monday morning when Justine was against Sharapova..i wanted Justine to win so badly and yet i knew that Sharapova was gonna win because she wanted to win it more than Justine..so yeah its sad but meh what can you do? you win some you lose some..the world does not revolve around you at all..so yeah same thing happened on Monday Morning..i woke up specially to watch the match between Federer and Andy Roddick at like 4am..pssh i've been waking up too early these few days its just annoying but yes anyways i wanted Andy to win very badly but i just knew that Federer was gonna win..oh well...

So yeah i havent been on good terms with most of my friends..i question their committment in the relationship and i dont see it there at all..maybe its true that only a few can be good friends and only a handful can be best friends..and i derno but i guess i just trust people too much and really give them my all when i dont have to..and i only have to give them a small bit to them because i know im not gonna get anything back..

I just love working as a waiter i think its soo fulfilling (: everytime when i serve customers and they smile after their meal and thank me for serving them, it brings a smile on my face and im so happy that they are happy although the food sucks big time but yeah ahah im just happy they enjoyed their experience there tho it sucks REALLY badly but shh i did not say that..

I went out with rach for lunch yest..i brought her to my chinese tuitions place..it was amazing and the food was soo good its a shame it isnt doing well ): oh well i'll try to go there more often (:


And today i went out with my sec school friends for sushi..haha miss them heaps and yeah im happyi met up with them..you know we had good times in sec school being in the same class and all we always hang out together..

im soo tired now and sad..

maybe theres beauty in goodbye
there's just no reason left to try
you pushed me away
another black day
lost count of the reasons left to cry
look what you've missed
living like this
nobody wins...